Update.

The meeting with the Oncologist today was alright.  We got the protein results back and they were all negative.  This is good and bad at the same time.  If any of them would have come back positive they would have had a better target to attack.  On the other hand it is good because that means that it does not have any "turbo chargers" that may be making it more aggressive.  We did not get the BRCA genetic test back yet, but we did talk about the form of attack, which we could do even though we don't have those results back.  We had the choice to do Chemo first or do surgery.  We are choosing to do Chemo first and this is why.  By doing the chemo first we can determine if this form of medicine is going to work against the cancer by shrinking the mass.  The other plus of doing chemo first we can stop the cancer from spreading, if by chance anything has gotten out that the PETscan did not show.  So the process that will be happening will be 3 treatments of chemo (which is 1 treatment every 3 weeks), so this will take about 9 weeks.  At about the 10-11 weeks we then can do the surgery and then after I heal from the surgery (which we don't know what type yet, not until the BRCA test comes back) we will finish the last 3 treatments (another 1 treatment every 3 weeks).    

We both feel that this is the best thing to do.  I honestly can say that I really wanted to have the surgery first, just cause I don't like feeling the mass, but after talking to the doctor and Kevin, I have realized that the best thing is to keep this cancer from the possibility of spreading.  The Oncologist is hoping to start this on Thursday.  That would mean that I will have to go have surgery to have the port a cath put in (which is an in & out procedure) and maybe even get the first dose of treatment that same day.  I should now for sure tomorrow when we will get this started.

For everyone who may be wondering how I am doing, I am scared.  I am scared of all the changes that will be happening, I am scared on how this is going to affect our kids and I am scared of the unknown.  This has really been hard for me, especially these last few days.  In the beginning we have been in & out of the doctors and this last week we have been able to actually comprehend what is going on and it has hit me.  It is hard to explain but the one thing that I will never forget is that I am not alone. I have the most amazing heavenly father, the best husband, family, and friends.  I thank you all for your prayers, they have definitly been felt, and for the support that we have been offered.  We love you all.. 

Tanya