Monday, August 31, 2009


The meeting with the Oncologist today was alright.  We got the protein results back and they were all negative.  This is good and bad at the same time.  If any of them would have come back positive they would have had a better target to attack.  On the other hand it is good because that means that it does not have any "turbo chargers" that may be making it more aggressive.  We did not get the BRCA genetic test back yet, but we did talk about the form of attack, which we could do even though we don't have those results back.  We had the choice to do Chemo first or do surgery.  We are choosing to do Chemo first and this is why.  By doing the chemo first we can determine if this form of medicine is going to work against the cancer by shrinking the mass.  The other plus of doing chemo first we can stop the cancer from spreading, if by chance anything has gotten out that the PETscan did not show.  So the process that will be happening will be 3 treatments of chemo (which is 1 treatment every 3 weeks), so this will take about 9 weeks.  At about the 10-11 weeks we then can do the surgery and then after I heal from the surgery (which we don't know what type yet, not until the BRCA test comes back) we will finish the last 3 treatments (another 1 treatment every 3 weeks).    

We both feel that this is the best thing to do.  I honestly can say that I really wanted to have the surgery first, just cause I don't like feeling the mass, but after talking to the doctor and Kevin, I have realized that the best thing is to keep this cancer from the possibility of spreading.  The Oncologist is hoping to start this on Thursday.  That would mean that I will have to go have surgery to have the port a cath put in (which is an in & out procedure) and maybe even get the first dose of treatment that same day.  I should now for sure tomorrow when we will get this started.

For everyone who may be wondering how I am doing, I am scared.  I am scared of all the changes that will be happening, I am scared on how this is going to affect our kids and I am scared of the unknown.  This has really been hard for me, especially these last few days.  In the beginning we have been in & out of the doctors and this last week we have been able to actually comprehend what is going on and it has hit me.  It is hard to explain but the one thing that I will never forget is that I am not alone. I have the most amazing heavenly father, the best husband, family, and friends.  I thank you all for your prayers, they have definitly been felt, and for the support that we have been offered.  We love you all.. 


Tuesday, August 25, 2009

shaking the tambourine

Exodus 14 and 15 give the account of the Israelites crossing the Red sea.  With their backs to the sea and Pharaoh's army approaching, the Israelites are complaining to Moses and wondering why the Lord brought them there to die.
As we all know; Moses parts the sea, they cross over on dry land, and Pharaoh's army is swallowed up in the sea. The Israelites respond by singing praises to the Lord and Miriam is shaking the tambourine.  A few weeks before we started this journey I was listening to Jon Courson comment on this passage and he noted how the Israelites rightly gave glory to Lord after He delivered them but how much greater it would have been if Miriam had played the tambourine before the sea was parted.  This has been our theme during this trial, we don't know what the outcome is going to be, but we are shaking the tambourine before the Lord part's the sea.  HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD!

Keep praying cause it works!!

First off I just want to say that the Lord is good and wonderful.  

I just got off the phone with the Oncologist about the MRI & PETscan results.  The MRI showed nothing else but the one mass and the PETscan came back Negative, which means that nothing else was showing up on the scan that was not normal, except for the one mass!!  This is such wonderful news, praise GOD!! 

Now we do still have some test we are waiting for which he should get back by Monday.  Please keep praying that the Lord will continue to strength us as a family and as his children.  Thank you and we love you all.

Friday, August 21, 2009

New Journey..

Well here we are starting this new blog page. The main reason for this blog is to keep all our family and friends updated on what is going on. I have recently been diagnosed with Ductal Carcinoma, which is a type of Breast Cancer. I still have a hard time with the fact that this is real and not some bad dream that I am in. It was a shock to us but God has a plan, wish I knew what it was, but I do know that God is in control and we just pray that he will use us in any way that he wants. So as of today, August 21st, this is what we know so far. We know that because of the size of the mass, 3.5 cm, that is puts us at stage 2, for now. Once some more test come back we will then meet with the Oncologist again, August 31st, and discuss the right method of treatment. These test will be able to show if it has spread or if there is anything that is making it be more aggressive.

We are all doing good, alittle tired from all this excitement, but hanging in there. We will keep you all updated as this process moves along. Thanks for all your prayers.